Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:"Lt Drush, Hello, how are you doing?
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:“…Better… I feel better.” she’d been walking with a severe limp and would probably need more physical therapy to deal with the healing, but she’d lived. Her hand drifts up and touches the scar
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:and she sighs. She didn’t like how her face had been marred like this
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:smiles "You look much better. I am happy for that. Come this way, and I will see how you are progressing.
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:“Thanks…” she goes to lie herself down on the table. She’d gotten used to it. She didn’t like being used to it. At least operations had her sedated
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192 checks the readings as the bio bed hums to life
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:“Let’s see. Is the leg still hurting? Have the treatments helped the pain?”
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:“If I’m standing too long it starts hurting again. It’s not constantly hurting anymore.” she replies slowly. To avoid misunderstandings
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:“That is good. That is progress. It will take time, given the compounded nature of the injuries. Scans are looking good. You are healing… well… according to this machine, but…” she moves to
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:the side near Lalaa’s head. "How about you? How does the person inside the body feel?
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:“Fine. I’m fine.” A lie, pretty obviously. She didn’t meet Jeiliscia’s eyes. She’d taken a lot of damage, lost people she shared her shift with in the blink of an eye. She’d taken the communication
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:badge from the corpse of a dead friend to coordinate operations until she passed out. She hadn’t checked to see if that colleague had been alive. She hadn’t tried to save him. Should she have
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:stared at lalaa for a good stretch and then spoke. "Lalaa, {common Orion: “Does the armaka not smell the feces? Do you think I am fooled, sister.”
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192 she smiled warmly. Not the usual cold pleasantry but the smile she gives when she really cares
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:{common Orion: “They’re dead. They’re all dead. I didn’t even try to save them. How can I be fine?”} she was more comfortable speaking in orion about this, that much had been seen before. She didn’t
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:ever switch to orion on her own, but she would open up fairly quickly spoken in that tongue
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:took Lalaa’s hand in her own. { “I know they are. I know all to well. They sacrificed much, so that we may continue their mission… our mission.” } she sighs. { "By the Mother Goddess’ grace,
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:+ if I could bring them back, I could save them… I would. But now, sister, I cannot nor can you. We simply move forward." } Jelly gave a soft squeeze to Lalaa’s hand
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:{“But I didn’t even try. I was there, I could have. I could have tried. But I instead contacted the other bridge. I talked. I must have watched a final moment, didn’t stop any bleeding.”} she’s still
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:caught in the moment, the smoke, the fire, the blood. Caught in how she didn’t try to physically save anyone other than calling for help. Didn’t try to stop any bleeding
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:{ "Lalaa, you did your job. You stayed at your post. You kept so many others alive that way. You did. I reviewed the logs, as department head, and… as the mistress of health concerns (sic), I had
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:+ to. You did what you had to do. If you had left your post… we would have never gotten out of there in mass." } Jelly’s other hand joined the first in comforting Lalaa. Jelly’s own scars on her
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:+ arms under her sleeves could be seen. { “I know all to well what you are feeling. I do.”}
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:Lalaa didn’t believe it. It would take her a lot of time to accept it. {“I am redundant. The other bridge could have… didn’t need me…”} but the scars had her attention. She was looking it over, now
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:silent. {“I guess skirts are a no go for me now.”} an attempt at a joke, a deflection away
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192 hike her leg up and pointed to a nice radition burn scar on her leg
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:{ "No, sister. Wear skirts… show your scars with pride. "}
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:{ “What you are feeling is survivor’s guilt. It is normal. You are, after all, not a psychopath. You care. You will need to attend therapy for that.” }
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:{“… I… but these are hideous.”} in the moment she was a bit jealous of the psychopaths. It’d be nice to not have emotions in this moment. {"I… guess… I… don’t know, sister. I don’t. Am I meant
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:to find a partner like this? How? Who would be attracted to this?"} it was still a bit of a problem that she was focused on getting a partner. She didn’t need one. She knew but part of her wanted on
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:{" my brother still asks about you. I do not think he will have a problem submitting to a… tough battle hardened maiden. The Mother Goddess has still blessed you with beauty and grace." }
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:{“I… should message him again. I haven’t… not since…”} it had been too long. She’d meant to speak to him but she was not scarred. { “How is he doing?” }
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:{ “he is doing well. My sisters keep him quite busy. He is being very protective of Sherrishia which is good. I think, though, he is quite still infatuated with you. He talks about you a lot.” )
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:+ { " how much he liked your bravery and willingness to fight." }
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:{ "You might be right then. He might be alright with the scars. I’ll… I’ll try to talk to him. Write to him. Oh also… can I sit up yet? "}
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:she flips back into federation common, "Oh, yes, if you wish sit up you may.
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701 sits down
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:“Thanks.” she switches back as well. “What… does he like? Maybe I could get a gift delivered to him?”
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:“He is not complicated, but my family is wealthy and he has much. I think merely seeing your face would be the best gift of all.”
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:“That… yes, I can do that easily. A video message then? That’d be good. Maybe if I can get a call going to.”
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:“Yes by all means. Then maybe he’ll stop asking me if you have already selected a mate.” she laughs
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:"Well you could tell him that I’m still very available if I don’t get to it first. He’s the one I’d worry about finding one. Strong, smart, handsome, what is there not to like?
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701 sits down
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:“He can be a brat.” she smiles. "Anyway, you need heal both your body and your mind. Do not make the mistake I made years ago of thinking you only need to do your body. I spent six Earth months in
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:+ a psychiatric ward after the USS Feines was lost because I thought I could handle it myself. Go to counseling and stick with that."
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:didn’t like counselors. She ran away from counselors. Had to have an appointment once. Tried to be evasive. They’d noted her focus on her appearance and other people’s perceptions of her at the time.
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:“Oh… I… do I really have to? Sure fine… I’ll go.” She was not planning to
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:“Yes please. I can make you but I would prefer you did so voluntarily, sister. Just go, and be honest.” Orion:{ “it is not something our people like but I tell as the Mother Goddess breathes, }”+
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:+“{ I have found peace in my sessions with our counselor. }”
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:still looks very hesitant to visit the counselor. She doesn’t want to. She really doesn’t want to. {“…I guess I’ll go…”} she probably wasn’t going to schedule an appointment though
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:tilts her head. { " I will be checking to make sure you do, sister." }
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:Noooo. Crap. She’d be checking. {“Nnn… Ok. I’ll do it I’ll really do it.”} she moves to stand up and hop off the bed
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:smiles “Trust me, I am not misleading you. It is for your best interest. Now, come back in a couple of weeks and let’s see if you are fit for duty, alright?”
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:“Alright. I’ll… be back.” she nods to Jelly. “Thank you. I… want to rest now I think. I’ll send a message to your brother.”
Jeiliscia Valusia@twitchy#192:“Alright, Lalaa,” she smiles warmly. “If you need anything in the meantime, or just want to talk, you know where I am.”
Lalaa@Erollyn#5701:“Alright. I will. Thanks again.” and Lalaa moves to walk off.