Personal Log: H'Ltol Sh'ow

OOC This section will be used for less formal Personal logs for H’Ltol, and will from time to time include letters from family and friends.

Stardate:
100542.0
Filed By:
CAPT Sh'ow, H.

Personal Log

The log begins with H’Ltol sat at the chair behind his desk in his ready room, the Caitian looking around the somewhat damaged remains on the room, as he sipped from a cup he had in his left hand, wincing a little as he did so from injuries that had not quite healed

“Second Mission as Captain… and I get people killed, good officers killed… all because I tried to save lives on other ships… and didn’t focus on my own crew… just what the crew needs… a captain that puts them in harms way”

H’Ltol is seen staring at a photo frame on his desk, with the picture hidden from view of the console camera, but the frame has clearly suffered damage during the last battle

“Even as I wrote the twenty-eight letters, with the help of the appropriate department head, I struggled to put into words how sorry I was for the families that had lost someone… all I could tell them was that the losses where not in vain and the war is over… and lives where saved… but I doubt that is any comfort… I would have held a service for the crew… but other than repairs and an inspection the ship isn’t suitable for much else”

A loud audible sigh is heard then a lengthy pause before H’Ltol carries on

“All I can do is try and remember what dad told me years ago… when I first transferred to Command ‘Just remember son… rule one, people under your command die and rule two… no matter how hard you fight or try… you can’t change rule one’

“Yeah… he tried to warn me… but I was too stubborn… same as always… I wanted the big chair… now I just need to suck it up… lean on my training… and be the best Captain I can… to that end… me and the XO are currently working out a Rota so we can both get down to Risa… I am hoping to get at least some time to meet the people I have been working with in person rather than faces on a view screen”

H’Ltol looks at the photo frame again as he sighs once more and gives a sound which almost sounds like a soft mew

“The fresh air and sun will do me good right? mixing with people… seeing new faces… just need to remember to take more time brushing the sand out of my fur this time”

H’Ltol stands up from his desk, in a loose fitting white long sleeved T-Shirt and a pair of loose fitting white trousers, almost as if he has only just gotten out of sickbay

“I better go get changed… hopefully I can get down to Risa soon… Computer… end log and set myself a reminder to get a new photo frame whilst I am on leave”

After a few seconds the Computer beeps and closes the log, just as H’Ltol’s ready room door can be heard opening then closing again

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OOC OOC Information to follow in the recording below

Stardate:
100574.6
Filed By:
CAPT Sh'ow, H.

Recording

The Log begins with, H’Ltol sat in his quarters behind his console at his desk and he sighs contently smiling happily as he did so, leaning back against his chair, before he carefully sips his water from the glass he had in his left hand

“Well… I was almost late back from leave… the look on Jack’s face as I came back almost looking disappointed to be going back to Duty… The look on C’Roren’s face… I am sure C’Roren nearly fainted…”

He stops, adjusting the new frame he had bought on leave, and looked over a second empty one and purrs softly

“Maybe I can…”

Before he can finish his sentence, his console starts to beep repeatedly with an incoming call

“Computer… pause log and open call”

The computer beeps however unknown to H’Ltol the console was still recording the call and himself as part of the log due to a computer error, and after a few moments the call connects, with female grey furred Caitian appearing on the screen who looked alot like H’Ltol

H’Ltol “Hello Rria… I am surprised by your call… nothing is wrong is it?”

Rria “Hey… can’t I call my little brother just to see how he is?” she purrs gently as she looks to him “Plus… you promised to let us know you where safe… with everything that was going on… we heard reports… but… nothing to say you where alright”

H’Ltol Nods slowly and gives a soft sigh “Sorry… after the war wrapped up… there was shore leave… and I was focused on recovering from the last battle…” despite his sigh he had a large smile on his face

Rria she tilts her head and raises what looks like her left eyebrow “Yeah recovering I bet… though I haven’t seen you smile like that since the Gamma… even when you where promoted to Captain you never smiled like that… care to tell me?”

H’Ltol He chuckles nervous and rubs the back of his head “No… idea what your talking about… it was just shore leave… no big deal… met some of the fleet mates… think I made a few new friends…”

Rria She giggles and then a loud two beeps where heard, as if the computer was censoring something “Oh… that was censored… I forgot that doesn’t translate well… Come on… out with it… it is nice to see you so happy… after all that has happened… come on… spit it out… or do I need to come there and start showing people cub pictures of you?.. you know I know where Mam hides the real embarrassing ones of us all” she stuck her tongue out at her brother

H’Ltol He narrows his eyes at her and mews softly “I… met someone… alright?.. I met someone… who… I took a special liking too… we… errr… spent time together… seemed to hit things off…” he smiles even more just saying it made him smile and purr, with him purring loudly as he did so

Rria She makes a slight chirping sound as she claps her hands together “Wow… you finally met someone… do tell… what they are like?.. are they cute?..and of course, most importantly, how annoyed is Mam gonna be?” she sticks her tongue out again

H’Ltol He takes a deep breath and purrs again as he looks at his sister “She… is very smart…alot smarter than me… funny… at least I find her funny… she is great company… amazing… and lots of other words… oh she also puts up with me… so that is a major point… and to that last one… she is Bajorian”

Rria She smiles widely and giggles softly “It was the nose creases wasn’t it?” she joked as she giggles a little more “Anyway… enough beating around it… come on… what is her name?.. is she part of the fleet your with? is she ship staff?”

H’Ltol he chuckles softly and sighs contently and purrs happily “They are very cute on her yes… and her name is Kala Sejea… still getting used to the family name first thing… she is another ship CO… and yes she is a new comer to the 38th… she joined just as Shore leave kicked off… so we met there”

Rria grins widely and looks to her brother “Explains the happy smile… and don’t worry you will get used to it… provided this is serious and not just a one time thing…” she seemed to frown for a moment at the thought but then smiles “She sounds like a fine women… and hey don’t beat yourself up… your not that bad company… in small doses” she giggles again and purrs softly

H’Ltol he purrs softly then hearing what his sister said he looks down for a moment and sighs softly “I… hope it isn’t a one time thing… I… like her… alot… and want to see where things take us…” he looks to his sister on the screen “I… haven’t been this happy in awhile…”

Rria she smiles warmly and purrs gently “As I said… not since the Gamma… but that wasn’t your fault…and neither was that guy on the Vanguard… he was an arse… after all he gave you that scar over your eye…” she folds her arms and grunts “Had I been there… I would have made him regret that… no one hurts my brother… though…” she smiles warmly “I might not be the only one…”

H’Ltol he nods slowly and purrs gently as he sighs and twiddles his thumbs a little as he looks to the console "What… if I mess this up?.. like I did my first command… and everything else before hand… " he sighs softly and looks down doubting himself at the moment

Rria She smiles warmly and purrs gently “I… bet Dad would have liked her… if he had the chance to meet her I mean… she sounds nice… and hey you didn’t mess anything up… you know sometimes… for a Captain you really lack confidence… cheer up… she clearly likes you enough to put up with you… that is something…” Rria has some beeping going off in the background of her side "Look… I need to get going… we are rather busy here at the moment but I want to hear more about her later when I have more time… and I want to meet her at some point… if things go well of course… and just remember what Dad said… you will be fine… you big softie… "

H’Ltol he looks to his sister and sighs softly “Yeah… well can’t be confident all the time… this is uncharted waters for me… but yeah… I will see what happens… and… see how things go… that is really all I can do…” He gives a small smile as he sighs again

Rria She stands up and smiles at her brother, still dressed in her medical uniform “Look… you big fuzz ball… relationships take effort… put it in… and you will get plenty out. You got this… you made Captain… now time for you to think of yourself just that little bit. Oh… before I forget… if she gets to meet Mam… call me… I want to see that… I love seeing her reaction” she giggles and smiles at her brother “But… in all seriousness… take care of yourself… and Sejea… hopefully I can meet her someday… because if she puts up with you… she must be blessed by the Prophets themselves” she sticks her tongue out at H’Ltol again before she then ends the call as she walks off back to her duties

There was a long silence, as H’Ltol hadn’t worked out the console had been still recording and he sighs softly as he leans back and closes his eyes being deep in thought, almost lost in his own mind, before after about five silent minutes he spoke “I… should really check in with my senior staff… will call a meeting and sort that out… back to work for the moment… professional cat…”

H’Ltol glances down at the console as he sits up and chuckles softly “It… was recording… great… ain’t gonna delete this… was nice to tell someone… computer… remind me to ask the Chief for someone to take a look at this”

he stands up slowly as he stretches “Computer… end log… or recording I guess… and signal the senior officers I want reports on our status…” he glances at the empty photo frame on his desk and rubs his chin “Hmmm… maybe… if I asked…”

As H’Ltol heads into the bedroom area of his quarters the Recording ends, the sounds of loud content purring being all the computer picks up

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