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101333.1
CAPT Sh'ow, H.
Personal Log
The Log begins with, H’Ltol sat not in his quarters but in his room in his family house back on Cait, with him sat at his desk where his personal console was, with a mug in his left hand, which he sipped from letting out a relaxed sigh
“Well… I am home… only for a day or two, not that Rria is complaining… she seems to enjoy me visiting… always more questions from her… and more stories she wants to hear”
He stops, adjusting a photo frame on his desk as he puts the mug down purring gently
“Not been back since that visit at Christmas… but… I felt this trip was needed… ever since my trip to the wormhole… I have been having bad dreams… and not my normal ones… about the borg… Sonva… and Sejea…”
He would pause briefly as he heard his sister shouting something up to him from downstairs, before he then shouted back
“I will be down in a moment… stop fussing… I can eat later…”
H’Ltol would adjusting himself in his seat and purr softly again
“Always worrying about my eating… but anyway… my nightmares… I normally don’t take stock in bad dreams… but these… where different… personal… too… focused to… just be worries…”
H’Ltol would rub his eyes slowly as he sighed gently
“I had a house… on Bajor… three amazing kids… I was a fair bit older than I am now… Sejea… was working in a lab in the house… some people approached… I told the kids to go inside to their mother… and then… once they did… bang… bang… bang… bang… all gone… then they come after me… I get hit… and before I die… a Ferasan stands over me… and says something… about my family needs to pay… then… I wake up… in a panic…”
Some more shouting could be heard, but this time in a more masculine voice, most likely H’Ltol’s grandfather K’Nia but given shortly after someone else shouted back, it was not likely directed at H’Ltol, who was just chuckling softly during this
“Sometimes… I miss being home…”
He paused again, taking a sip from his mug as he signed
“Don’t know… maybe I am over thinking it… but I came here… to try and access old family records… stuff stored in the main archives in the Capital… Rria has been coming with me… Kinda… wish Sejea was here instead… might help with my worries… and make it easier for me to dismiss this all as just a bad dream…”
H’Ltol seemed to stare at one of the photos on his desk, before then turning to look out the large glass doors that would lead out to the balcony just outside his room, that overlooked the surrounding valley and mountains
“I mean… kids… me and her… possible yes… one day… but so soon… no unlikely… she is too focused on work… not seen her since she took off on her last mission… had hoped she would have been back by now”
H’Ltol stood up and stretches gently, as he walked towards the large glass doors he was previously looking out of, before then looking at his bed, one that hadn’t been used in a number of months
“Last time I was here was with her… never been happier than I am with her… I feel bad saying it… but not even Sonva… made me feel this way… just wish we did have a little more time together… that doesn’t make me a bad guy… does it?”
H’Ltol rubs his eyes softly and purrs gently shaking his head chuckling as he did so
“Maybe… when I get back… I should book in with Lt K’Sarra again… I could use someone to help me sort my head out… need to stop putting it off… not anymore… I need to do better… maybe the Doc would help me believe this is all just some bad dream… and no one is after me…”
H’Ltol would return to his seat infront of the console and purrs gently as he then stretches a little
"But well… for now… a few days at home… my crew can handle themselves… if anyone needs me I am still only a call away… though I should check in on my pilot… P’Nau Hsoia… she was nervous about flying the Captain… but apparently had her on busy on the planet so jumped at the chance… "
There was then a knock at H’Ltol’s bedroom door which caused H’Ltol to pause for a moment
“Well… that is the dinner bell… I better get going… maybe the archives will shed some light on things tomorrow… computer… end log”
The console would beep, and shut down just as H’Ltol got up and walked from his bedroom door
Addition
The Log begins with, H’Ltol sat on his bed in his room, with a padd resting on his face
“Well… The archives where a bust… apparently some stuff going back to when my Grandad… was young and before that are highly classified by the order of the Caitian government”
He stops, and moves the padd off his face and sighs gently as he sits up, sniffling up a little
“Still smells of her… but anyway… that doesn’t help my worries… I asked the attendant if there was any other details, he just said to go talk to my Grandad… he would know…”
He growls softly and slams his fist against his bed before he stands up slightly angered
“And of course… all I got was, that the family was on a special assignment for the government at the time”
H’Ltol sighs and rubs his eyes as he moved to sit back down on his bed
“Either way… I didn’t find anything to make me worry… but not anything to ease my mind either… I should just stop taking stock in these dreams… and focus on the future…”
H’Ltol moved to lay back on his bed and purrs gently as he then smiles warmly
“Computer… end log… and set an alarm call for 0700 tomorrow… shuttle leaves early”
The computer beeps and the log ends, just as the sun started to set at the end of the day*