Personal Log: Sedai, Katriel

WARNING. It’s … a slight bit longer than the usual log and…
of monumental insignificance, so no worries if you skip it, eh-heh.

The turbolift’s humming came to a stop as it arrived at its destination. Katriel stepped through the opening doors onto the promenade level, and headed wearily for the Cantina. Her hands were empty as she had vowed it would be a short stop, no extended reading session, just a warm decaffeinated tea and then straight to bed, something she hadn’t seen in a little while thanks to the arrival of twenty five hundred refugees on station.

The assorted individuals and scattered families of Starbase 234 and New Romulus had been situated in various cargo bays and replimats across several decks and Katriel had done a great deal of overtime in sorting through the injured and assisting in getting people comfortable, quiet and calm. In all likelihood, it would be a while before any of them would leave, as officials would likely need the time to draw up proposals on how to redistribute all the Federation personnel or to determine the suitability and safety of a return to New Romulus in the case of the Romulan citizens. In the meantime, however, most of them seemed to be getting along well enough on DS13, considering what they had experienced and how strapped they were for space.

Her absent reverie was shattered just as she arrived at the bottom of the Cantina’s ramp and the sound of a girl’s quiet crying filled her senses. The Betazoid quickened her pace just a fraction and as she came over the rise, Swifty caught sight of her and gave off an explosively relieved sigh, exclaiming about ‘thanking the Blessed Exchequer that she was here’ and promising free tea for a month if the counselor would kindly take this ‘noisy brat’ off his hands. Said counselor pursed her lips as she stared down at the not-really-all-that-noisy human girl standing next to the agitated Ferengi. The child’s cheeks were wet with tear streaks as she stared timidly back at the newcomer with measured distress.

The counselor softened her expression and drew forward, bending down so that she was eye level with the girl. “Hey there,” she greeted softly, keeping her tone as kind as possible.

The girl sniffed once, hiccuping back another sob. “Hello.”

Katriel smiled just a little in encouragement. “Are you lost?” She glanced around the lounge, deserted by all but the cranky Ferengi at this hour. “How did you get here all by yourself?”

“Oh, please don’t be mad,” the girl’s tone turned to a plea. “We … we were playing hide and seek and I … I came a little further to hide up here and I waited and waited but no one came to find me and then when I looked, everyone was gone!”

Katriel’s glance turned up towards Swifty, who was still standing by disapprovingly. “She’s from the refugee freighter, I assume?”

Swifty confirmed and added that a group of children had been escorted through the promenade earlier in the day, in an attempt to distract them from the events of the previous days. The enlisted officer assigned to watching over the herd obviously hadn’t done a very good job, in losing one of his charges. Katriel’s eyes fell back on the child.

“I’m not angry, don’t worry. How about I find out who’s supposed to be watching you, and I’ll stay with you until they arrive? You can have a drink while we wait?” Katriel suggested. Her lips pulled into a smile as the girl tentatively nodded her assent.

“Okay,” was the whispered response. “Can I have hot chocolate?”

“You heard her, Swift. I’ll take one too, actually.”

The Ferengi grumbled as he shuffled back behind the counter to fill the order while Katriel pinged her badge to access fleet comms. Sure enough, the little girl had only just been discovered missing, and a panicked officer responded that someone would be up promptly to retrieve her. In the meantime, their hot cocoas arrived and Katriel corralled the girl to the back of the lounge area to wait, so that they’d be out of Swifty’s proverbial hair. The two of them sat on the red-cushioned window seat and Katriel opened her mouth to ask the girl’s name when –

“How come there’s no great bear in the sky?”

The counselor’s mouth shut abruptly as she puzzled over the question. “There’s no what?”

The young girl pointed upward at the glass dome that made up the promenade’s ceiling. “The great bear,” she whimpered in response. “I was looking for him, he’s always there in the stars when I look at home. But I can’t find him here.”

Katriel looked upwards in sudden understanding, her stomach sinking a little. A constellation. Somewhere in the sea of stars above Starbase 234, there must have been a pattern of stars that had been transfigured by imagination into that of a mighty bear. But now, light years away from that area of space, the configuration of stars would look completely different. A bit tragic, really, that such an art would be lost, thanks to the advancement of sentients into space.

“My mommy said that the great bear would always watch over me and keep me safe. But how can he keep me safe if he can’t see me?” The girl’s tone had turned distressed and those wide blue eyes were starting to look a little watery again.

The counselor searched the skies above them, her mind racing for a solution. These types of tales were far from alien to her, though Betazoid children were seldom told such fictions. What was the point when they could empathically divine the lack of truth in them? But Katriel couldn’t find it in herself to dispel the myth and magic for this one.

“Well… the great bear… he…” she mentally scrambled to find an answer. “He’s still protecting you because… he… asked Argo to.”

Katriel’s response was a surprise to both of them. The girl’s searching gaze lowered to stare at the Betazoid in startlement. “What is Argo?”

“Argo is…” Not the reality. “… a ship. A great boat, the kind that sails the seas.” Katriel paused for an extended moment. Argo’s namesake was genuinely a sea-faring vessel, this much Katriel knew. But the original mythology of Argo was not exactly a suitable tale for a child. Katriel turned her smiling gaze on the girl, her mind suffused with inspiration. “Have you never heard the story of Argo?”

The girl’s eyes were wide as she shook her head, her hot cocoa almost completely forgotten.

“Well, first … what’s your name?” Katriel asked.

The human child blinked. “Josetta,” she shyly responded.

“Josetta,” Katriel repeated. “What a remarkable coincidence, because that’s the name of the main character in the story of Argo.”

“Really??” Josetta was just old enough to question said ‘coincidence’, Katriel supposed.

“Really,” the Betazoid confirmed anyway and smiled when Josetta’s reaction indicated she was still young enough to be carried away by the marvel of it. Katriel sat back a little in her seat, her hands clasped around her warm mug of cocoa, and settled into The Patient Storyteller’s voice.

“Now Josetta, she lived in the kingdom of … Aldebaran, which was a great and very prosperous one. But one day, a great and enormous … creature of shadow came and stole the sacred treasure of Aldebaran.”

Katriel brought one hand up to gesture at the sun. "It was called the great Golden Pearl of Aldebaran and was key to keeping the kingdom safe. Without it, Aldebaran would be helpless to invaders, so the king of Aldebaran knew it had to be retrieved. As the king had a mighty navy of ships, he sent a ship full of his sailors to sail after the shadow creature.

“But the shadow creature was too powerful and simply smashed the ship as it approached. Aldebaran needed the Pearl, so the king was forced to send another ship and another after that. Some made it farther than others, but none of them succeeded in retrieving the Pearl.”

“How many ships did the king send?” Josetta’s eyes were wide with sorrow for the lost fictional sailors.

“Umm… twenty… no, thirty… seven. Thirty-seven ships.” Katriel paused as she thought over that impromptu decision, then nodded as she fitted the final pieces together.

"Now Josetta’s brother was in the king’s navy and he was a sailor on the thirty-ninth ship. Josetta was afraid because she knew that if her brother’s ship set sail to battle the creature, it was possible that he would be killed. She was determined not to let that happen, so when the thirty-eighth ship was about to depart, Josetta disguised herself as a sailor and snuck aboard.

“That thirty-eighth ship was the Argo,” Katriel added. “And it was the swiftest ship yet, with the bravest crew. When Argo came upon the shadow creature, it brought one of its arms down to smash the ship like it had done all the others, but the Argo was too quick and came out unscathed from the blow.”

“But how did they beat the shadow? They can’t just outrun it, they have to get the Pearl back!” Josetta exclaimed.

At least she’s invested, Katriel mused. “Well, with Argo on the other side of the shadow creature, they were able to see the Pearl in its other arm, kept in a huge black sack that prevent its light from coming through. It was Josetta who gave the sailors the idea to cut the sack open, so the Argo sailed swiftly for the sack, dodging every time the shadow creature tried to smash them. The crew drew their swords and sliced the bottom of the bag open, and the bright Pearl of Aldebaran fell out onto the Argo’s deck.”

Katriel pointed towards the sun again. “And do you know what happens when a great big light shines on a shadow?”

Josetta did know. “It goes away!”

“And so the great shadow creature was defeated and Josetta and the Argo returned to the king with the Pearl,” Katriel concluded the story with no mild amount of satisfaction. “As a reward, the king declared that the Argo and all its sailors would forever be the guardians of Aldebaran and so they have sailed the sea of stars ever since, protecting everyone who comes their way. Including you, Josetta.”

The human girl was in awe. Frankly the Betazoid was just as impressed with herself. It must be the sleep deprivation. Josetta’s gaze rose to the stars again, her eyes squinting at the dots up above. “But where is it?”

Katriel was prepared for this, too. In the telling of the story, she had simultaneously searched for a pattern of stars that she could conceivably pass off as a ship. Sure, no one else would know or ascribe the same meaning to said clump of stars. But what did that matter? She leaned in towards Josetta and reached an arm up towards the glass dome. “There. Do you see those brighter stars, there? They form the body of the ship and there is the sail.”

“Oh, I see it, I see it! Wow, the Argo!”

“Josetta!”

The two stargazers looked towards the new voice, an adult human male pacing towards them from the ramp. He looked a little frantic and dressed in a Starfleet uniform that was a bit worse for the wear. Not in Argo’s colors, however.

“Daddy!” Josetta jumped up from her seat as the man came close and scooped her up in a hug. Katriel rose more sedately to her feet, waiting patiently for the moment to pass. The other officer’s arms clasped tightly around his daughter’s frame, squeezing briefly before relaxing. Then he set her down, taking Josetta’s hand, and turned an apologetic expression on Katriel.

“I’m so sorry, I’ve been helping with the settlement of … all of us, so I had to leave her with the rest of the kids and they went on that tour thing and --”

“It’s quite all right,” Katriel interjected, not wanting him to ramble on an unnecessary explanation. “It was no trouble to watch her. Swifty might like an apology, I admit, but don’t give him one. You’re from Starbase 234?”

“Yes,” the man’s expression darkened a shade, then he shook it off and extended a hand. “William Gene.”

Katriel returned the handshake politely. “Counselor Sedai. Your daughter’s been very good, don’t be too hard on her.”

“Oh, I won’t. I can’t afford to be,” Josetta’s father smiled painfully, looking down at the subject of their conversation. Josetta’s attention was rapt on the newly christened Argo constellation, oblivious to any discussion regarding her. “Our home is not the only thing we lost when we left H’atoria.”

Katriel’s glance sharped on reflex as her head tilted and she read between the lines and the blurred flashes of memory. Josetta’s mother didn’t make it off the station. “I’m sorry.”

The man didn’t respond immediately, as his glance remained on his daughter. “Other people lost more.”

“True,” was Katriel’s noncommital response.

They stood in silence for a moment or two longer, before William shook off his stupor. “I better take her back down. Thank you again, I’m really very sorry about any inconvenience.”

“It was no trouble,” Katriel reassured him. She turned to address Josetta instead. “It was very nice meeting you, Josetta.”

Josetta beamed, her earlier distress mostly forgotten, for now. “Thank you for the cocoa!” she chirruped as her father led her away.

“You’re very welcome.” She watched as the pair moved away and disappeared down the ramp. Her head tilted back to stare at the ‘Argo’ in the sky.

I only wish I could do more.

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Starfleet Medical Professional,

You are cordially invited to join us at the 88th Annual Intergalactic Conference of Starfleet Medical and the Federation Medical Association. This prestigious event is one of the quadrant’s largest annual gatherings and will this year be held on Bajor, in Hathon.

The general theme of this year’s conference is “Seeking A More Harmonious Whole: Medical and Psychological Health in a Galaxy of Conflict”.

The market lanes of Hathon were filled with people and Katriel had to take extra care to maneuver through the crowded streets. She’d just left a lecture that had ended in the former capitol building and had some time to spare until the next panel that interested her. It was a timely break for lunch, so Katriel had made her way to the populated food stalls, but so had dozens upon dozens of other conference participants it seemed. She suppressed a sigh and leaned against a tree on the edge of the square, not yet so desperate for sustenance that she’d venture into the tide of people.

“Well, well, if it isn’t Doctor Katriel Sedai,” a voice sounded out from one side. The Betazoid’s head tilted towards the greeting in puzzlement, her expression lightening upon her recognition. Doctor Aubrey Harper stood there, having just coming out of the building behind Katriel’s tree, and he turned his mischievous smile on her.

“Or, no, wait. Counselor Sedai, isn’t it?” he corrected himself.

“Counselor, indeed,” Katriel rejoined. “Because if I had wanted to be addressed Doctor all the time, I’d have stayed on Casperia when you offered it to me.”

“No doubt,” Harper likewise agreed. He surveyed her from head to toe. “I thought I recognized your hair. Actually, I thought I recognized your voice earlier, too, in the expo square, but it turned out to be just a hologram. Strangest thing.”

The counselor swallowed back a choking noise. “Very.”

The doctor evidently did not notice. “Enjoying the conference so far? Are you taking a break?” He surveyed the crowded street. “I happen to know of a rather famous bistro a few blocks away. Bit more tucked away than all of these, if you wanted to find a place to hide and catch up?”

Katriel exhaled a breath of relief. “Sounds perfect. Lead the way.”

“So how are you enjoying the conference? Heard anything noteworthy?” Harper inquired, when they were both situated and waiting on their food orders.

Katriel considered. “Just before we ran into each other, actually, I had just left a fairly interesting lecture. The speaker was, in fact, not a doctor or a psychologist, but an astral anthropologist. Though he may have had a minor in psychology.”

“Unusual. What was the gist of it?” Harper dropped some sweetener into his coffee-lookalike drink.

“The speaker specialized in alien civilizations on the cusp of ubiquitous space travel and took note of major differences and similarities.” She picked up her mug and held it aloft in her fingers, considering how to rephrase what she had heard earlier in the day. “What he thought would interest the medical community was his observation of a frequent and significant shift in a culture’s psychology at this critical moment in a civilization’s history, where individuals began to subconsciously see themselves not as citizens of geographically-split nations or races, but as part of a single and unified global population.”

“Due to… the experience of a people seeing their native planet from space for the first time?” the doctor speculated.

“Yes, that’s it precisely,” she confirmed. “For the citizens that are newly experiencing space on a massive scale after generations of non-spacefarers, going into space for the first time and looking back down on one’s planet seems to cause all manner of psychological effects, sometimes dramatic feelings of isolation or loneliness, but also frequently instilling a sense of greater kinship to those that had previously been dismissed as different for primarily superficial reasons. He referred to it as the ‘overview effect’.”

Harper stirred around the liquid in his mug, visibly digesting the explanation. “All right, I suppose I can buy that. But what’s the relevance? Why do you find it a compelling observation?”

Katriel’s shoulders lifted up in a slight shrug. “I suppose because he described this ‘overview’ effect as being practically religious in its ability to radically impact the behavior of these civilizations. I end up wondering if… if there’s no equivalent experience now that would provide a similar sort of spiritual or philosophical breakthrough for our citizens of the galaxy now. So that we stop seeing each other as disparate alien cultures and remind us all that we’re all, in fact, kindred citizens of the same galaxy.” Her tone had turned somewhat wistful by the end.

“Ahhh,” Harper sighed out. “I see what you mean. You know, we humans had an ancient astronomer by the name of Sagan, who wrote a text that alluded to a similar sentiment. In it, he names Earth a ‘pale blue dot’ as that’s all it is when seen from lightyears in the distance. And I can even quote to you my favorite bit, let’s see…”

He paused, brow furrowed, as he tried to recall. Then his forehead smoothed out and he cleared his throat.

The Earth,” he recited, “is a very small stage in a vast cosmic arena. Think of the rivers of blood, spilled by all those generals and emperors, so that in glory and triumph they could become the momentary masters of a fraction of a dot.

Katriel was stunned into silence for a long moment. “That is eloquent,” she said finally.

“But perhaps… not applicable? It’s true that in Earth history, and likely a lot of other civilizations, people likely spend too much energy attempting to conquer what is a perceivably tiny amount of terrain, and for what?” Harper shrugged, bringing up his drink up for a quick sip. “But we’re at war with the Iconians now, over this huge swath of Milky Way, not just a single planet. Even by Sagan’s terms, it couldn’t be considered an inconsequential amount of territory.”

“And yet,” Katriel interjected, before Harper could dismiss the subject entirely. “What does our Milky Way look like from the galaxy that the Iconians now inhabit? Is it not also just a single point of light in the sky? The only importance we hold for the Iconians is the one they continue to ascribe to us, for objectively speaking, we could not possibly be any more consequential to them than the next galaxy.”

Doctor Harper opened his mouth, paused for a long moment, then shut it with a grunt. “Hmph. I should know better than to tackle abstract philosophy with a therapist.”

The Betazoid pursed her lips against a smile. “Perhaps.”

“Enough about that, then,” Harper shook his head, his smile turning a little more sly. “Tell me about this hologram I saw in the expo hall. The one with your voice. You wouldn’t happen to know anything about that, now, would you?”

“… um…”

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Chapter 1: Dark Clouds

---- // MESSAGE ORIGIN: Deep Space 13.
AUDIO ONLY. SIGNED: Sedai, Katriel // ----

Hey, it’s me. Just thought I would check in, while I had some time. You must be out saving the galaxy right now, or so McCarthy teased me?

Things have been a little quieter here on starbase, at least for me, since I returned from Alpha. I’ve had some high profile consultations, but mostly it’s been business as usual. Though I did have an extended casual chat with the new Admiral and his husband one evening, which was endearingly entertaining and made me somewhat regret my recent, very short and business-only stay on Bajor.

Because it’s been so quiet, though, I had time to reserve the holodeck and try a new program that I found while at the Medical Conference: a ‘based on a true story’, four chapter holonovel on the events just prior to the Cardassian Occupation of Bajor. It is, perhaps, not my usual fare, but after watching the author’s presentation, it became rather irresistible for some reason and I can’t exactly say why.

In any case, the story seems to follow the fate of several protagonists, a sort of multi-threaded narrative without too much focus on one character or another. There’s Emile, a Bajoran who lives on a rural farm with his daughter and his son-in-law, Karl, who is Klaestron. But because of the impending war, Karl is deported from Bajor and forcibly enlisted in aid to the Cardassians, while Emile is drafted to the Bajoran militia. Emile’s daughter is left alone to care for the farm, with her and Karl’s infant son.

Brilliantly morose already, isn’t it?

Emile’s military career has a regrettably inauspicious start when his unit is almost completely wiped out and he’s captured by Cardassians. They keep him as a camp cook, which seems somewhat undignified at first glance, but Emile noted that he actually prefers it to having to kill other soldiers, a view I can personally empathize with. As it happens, the camp is visited on this day by the highly decorated Gul Vondor and one of his direct subordinates is the unhappy Karl. The two manage to steal time to catch up before the camp is suddenly attacked by the Bajorans. The Gul and his staff, including Karl, are forced into retreat while Emile very nearly dies in the initial bombing assault.

He is recovered from the rubble by Dedier, another Bajoran. Dedier’s a lively brash sort and they become fast friends, though I don’t think much of Dedier’s personal motivations. He tells Emile that he joined the militia for revenge, after Gul Vondor lead a bombing raid that destroyed his home village and killed his wife. As Emile now also harbors hope that Karl is alive and working in the Gul’s service, both Bajorans become determined to work together to track down the Gul. They follow a rumor that the ruthless Cardassian has traveled onward to Reims, a nearby city, in his low-atmo war aircraft.

On their way, they meet Anna, a Bajoran student in possession of a land car. She speaks of her father who went missing at the start of the war and she has been traveling to locate him, and of course her last contact with him had been in Reims, so she helpfully gives the pair a lift.

I have to admit, it was around this point that I began to harbor some skepticism that this was genuinely ‘based on a true story’. At the very least, the author must have taken significant artistic license in order for all these pieces to fit quite so neatly. One thing I’ll say for it though, the holonovel music is quite moving and almost completely makes up for the lack of empathic sensory feedback that I experience in these programs.

The three of them arrive in the next town, above which Gul Vondor’s aircraft still remains, raining terror in the form of bombs on the buildings below. They initially spend some time helping civilians in the disaster area, before formulating a plan to take down the aircraft. Though they manage to do significant damage to the aircraft’s propulsion systems, the Gul orders a retreat and the chapter ends with a view of the aircraft limping away, possibly in a crash trajectory, it was a bit hard to tell.

Cursed cliffhanger endings. I didn’t have time to continue onto the next chapter to see if anyone survived, unfortunately. Next time.

We’re headed to Risa tomorrow, but I’ll have all my messages forwarded, so don’t hold back! Miss you lots.

---- // END MESSAGE // ----

((with apologies to Ubisoft: Montpellier. thank you for the beautiful game.))

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Chapter 2: Broken Earth

---- // MESSAGE ORIGIN: Deep Space 13.
AUDIO ONLY. SIGNED: Sedai, Katriel // ----

::the audio log starts with some random beeping noises::

Fairy, off! It’s not dinner time yet.

::a muffled thump, followed by a sigh::

Hi. Sorry about that. Obviously Fairy misses you and just wanted a word in edgewise.

I had another few relaxing days on Risa after the night you came by, before the Wright returned us all to station. Miraculously I think I managed to avoid working pretty much the entire leave, except for this one really brief, really non-strenuous volunteer task for the Risian Expansions Committee. Aren’t you proud of me?

Coming back into work has been hard, I suppose I’m still not very good at overcoming vacation ‘hangover’, but since things have continued to be relatively quiet on station for the psych department, it hasn’t been all bad. Managed to sneak in some holonovel time, when everything else on station was kind of on hold for systems upgrades.

Naturally the second chapter picks up not right after the first chapter, but in the past, with Anna’s point of view. I learned about her father, who turns out to be a prolific Bajoran scientist and the Cardassians abducted him primarily to prevent his assistance to the Bajorans. Despite her father’s warning to stay out of the fighting, Anna is headstrong and, being a student of medicine, she volunteers as a medic.

Much of the early part of this chapter is scenes of her coping with what she discovers on the front, aiding the wounded. I have such mixed feelings going through these scenes, knowing that they’re inspired by events of the past and are only artistic depictions, while not forgetting that similar scenes have played out already in very recent memory on New Romulus, Qo’nos, and others.

I imagine that this is part of why I end up being curious about these things. I have comparatively little combat experience, as you and many others know, and it can be a sticking point when working with a patient with PTSD. Some will get upset or angry when I try to talk through it, they say I can’t ever ‘truly understand’ what it’s like, because I wasn’t there in that person’s shoes, and not all the empathy in the world can ever change that.

Truth be told… sometimes even I feel the same. I mean, I know I have a leg up compared to some others because of my physiology. And as a psychological professional, I have to believe that I can be of assistance to others without actually having the exact same experiences as my patients. But sometimes it’s challenging to maintain that mindset in the face of someone’s suffering. No matter how good my imagination is or my capacity to share their pain, I’m certain that it can’t compare to the reality.

I digress, though. Let’s see… Anna. Eventually the scene from the first chapter comes back around, where Anna meets Emile and Dedier and it’s revealed that Anna’s father was also aboard the Gul’s now-crashing aircraft. The three of them explore the still-burning debris of the crash and attempt to find survivors. Finally there seems to be some luck on their side as they locate Karl, though his legs partially crushed by one of the aircraft’s passenger cars.

They rescue him and Karl explains about Anna’s father and Gul Vondor, both having escaped the vessel before it crashed, via an escape craft. Anna is despondent, but Emile and Dedier vow to her that they will not give up the chase, so when Karl is sent to a prisoner of war camp to recover, Anna gives up her mission to them and volunteers to go with Karl and ensure his recovery instead.

Emile and Dedier return to the front, continuing to track the Gul’s movements. They finally encounter him during an assault on an important Cardassian-held military installation, but in the confusion of pursuit, the two friends are separated. Dedier discovers Anna’s father and manages to free him, but their escape route is littered with explosives. In true cinematic form, the chapter ended with Emile looking on from a safe vantage point as the installation is engulfed in flames and I was left uncertain as to Dedier’s and Anna’s father’s fates.

Typical cheap attempt at instilling extra drama. I’m still enjoying it though, so I suppose that’s all that matters.

::a slight squeaking noise of the office desk chair rapidly reclining and another few random beeps are sounded onto the recording::

Fairy! All right, fine, it’s close enough. Say ‘goodbye’ to Matt first.

::a pause, while presumbly the black feline is staring blankly at her person with that classic ‘uh?’ expression::

No? Sheesh. You know I could have brought home a replacement for you from Risa, right?

Miss you, Matt. Stay safe out there.

---- // END MESSAGE // ----

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Chapter 3: The Poppy Fields

---- // MESSAGE ORIGIN: Deep Space 13.
AUDIO ONLY. SIGNED: Sedai, Katriel // ----

Hi.

::there’s a long pause as the recording gets nothing but silence for a bit::

I’m sorry for my small bout of radio silence recently, I just … I think I must have completely cursed myself after the past few weeks of quiet, because all of a sudden I have a ton of things to do and no idea how it all ended up on my plate. There’s this delegation of medical officers from ESD who’ve been surveying our facilities and meeting with Captain Perim and other medical personnel about implementation of new medical standards, in terms of both facilities and processes.

And then I just took on all this … not official work, somehow. Helping to place … ah, more refugees and … doing some unofficial consultations for starship Captains.

::a tired sigh::

I did manage to get in some holodeck time, before all of this ambushed me. Finished chapter three of the holonovel. Though I feel like not that much happened… where did I leave off?

Oh, that’s right. It started with a new perspective, Karl’s actually, who’s spent some number of months recovering in this prisoner of war camp with Anna’s assistance. But Karl one day receives a letter from his wife (Emile’s daughter, remember?) and she tearfully writes that their young son, now a couple years old, is quite sick and their hometown has been occupied by Cardassians who don’t have much concern for the Bajorans still living there.

Karl gets it into his head that he should attempt to escape, elsewise he might never see his wife or son ever again. He works with a couple other prisoners and manages to get clear of the camp, though the alarm sounds and I was treated to a brief chase sequence that ends with Karl locking himself in … I guess it was a barn? And the Bajorans attempting to break into the structure.

It cut away back to Dedier and Anna’s father then. It turns out they both managed to survive the explosion and work on returning to the Bajoran camp, where Emile is extraordinarily glad to see them. The two friends inform Anna’s father that she’s been looking for him and he departs immediately to reunite with his daughter. But their reunion is tempered by sadness as Anna learns that Karl was killed during his escape attempt. She decides to make her way to Emile’s farm, to deliver the news to Emile’s daughter in person.

In the meantime, Emile and Dedier have continued their pursuit of Gul Vondor and finally lead a force to a significant victory over the Gul’s forces. There’s a moment where Dedier has the opportunity to finish the job and kill the Gul, but he ends up deciding against it, realizing that the vengeance won’t bring his wife back. So instead the Gul is returned to the Cardassians, where his repeated failures result in his rank being stripped and he’s sent into forced retirement. A fate worse than death, of course.

I thought that was the end of the chapter, but instead was treated to a scene of Karl, who is alive after all, and trudging through some snowy territory. He ends up saving a little girl from some feral wildlife and her grateful mother houses Karl and hides him from a patrol of soldiers when they pass by. Karl explains that he managed to escape the attention of the soldiers previously by trading his identity tags with a dead prisoner’s, which is why he had been reported as dead. He leaves the woman’s house with a fresh set of clothes and is trekking through the snow when a land car pulls up behind him; it turns out to be Anna, who’s desperately relieved to see Karl safe and they start on their way to the farm together.

One more chapter after all this, though the way things have been lately, I’m not sure when I’ll have time to get to it.

Some of your fellow Zenas stopped by the station the other night, by the way. Spent a little time chatting with them and…

::her tone trails off for a moment::

Oh. And apparently I’ve been drafted into dueling Captain Parsons with sabers, because the man’s more or less too smug to accept ‘no’ for an answer. He’s gone so far as to encourage spectator wagering! I admit I don’t want to see what those odds look like.

Stars, I’m tired. Hope you’re faring well and that you’re way less busy than me. Miss you.

---- // END MESSAGE // ----

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Chapter 4: Wooden Crosses

---- // MESSAGE ORIGIN: Deep Space 13.
AUDIO ONLY. SIGNED: Sedai, Katriel // ----

Hey. I know you might not even be back yet, but I miss you already.

Between everything else that happened while you were here… you are just so… completely distracting, I realized I forgot to tell you about the ending to the holonovel which … well, I was surprised by the direction it took, I suppose.

First the less surprising part. Karl and Anna managed to get back to the farm just after the town endures an assault from the Bajorans, an effort to force the Cardassians to give up their occupation. It’s a successful attack, but Karl is horrified at the bombarded state of the farm. Him and Anna are separated as they comb through the ruins, looking for signs of Karl’s family. Eventually he locates them in a basement, surrounded by rubble, unharmed, but trapped and unable to free themselves. Karl nearly breaks his own neck in trying to reach them, but with Anna’s help, the two are recovered and the family’s finally reunited.

Almost.

On the other side of the war, Emile and Dedier have been assigned to a front where the Cardassians are seriously entrenched and have been holding for months already, but the Bajorans considered the land to be symbolically important to take back, so here was their attempt at launching an offensive.

But they were completely outgunned and undermanned. The Cardassians’s position was too well fortified and the Bajoran militia lead was essentially sending in soldiers to their deaths. Dedier and Emile press on nonetheless and make progress, but many of their colleagues are falling and there were … corpses everywhere.

I suppose I don’t really need that level of detail. Anyway. Eventually… eventually Dedier is seriously injured as the pair of them narrowly avoid a falling shell. And despite the injury, the Bajoran General continues to demand that they press the assault. Emile, angered and frustrated by the futility of everything, he strikes out at their commanding officer and the blunt force trauma ends up killing the General. The offensive is abandoned, sparing some Bajoran lives and even Dedier’s, but Emile is arrested and awaits court martial for his crime.

I was stunned and saddened by this turn, even though… well. Emile is my favorite character easily, you know? I even said how much I related to what he was thinking and feeling and then… this. In the end, he’s found guilty and is sentenced to death. After his execution, he’s buried on a hill with hundreds of other Bajoran soldiers and the holonovel ends with all the other characters mourning at his grave.

I know, I know. I need to find a comedy holonovel after this one, for sure. As if the actual war is not taking enough of an emotional toll, I really shouldn’t be filling my spare time with this as well.

Ah, poor Emile.

Anyway, um. Thank you for … everything yesterday. Even… even your greeting. ::she laughs just a little:: You… you really know how to make up for the long absences. I think I’ll take the stars to my office, but despite how nice the drawing turned out, I think I’m more comfortable just keeping it in my quarters. And I’m just going to hide the gnome sketch under a stack of books somewhere.

Just teasing. Probably.

Stay safe, Matt. Comm me when you’re free, okay?

And don’t show that video to Chaze and the others! I’m serious!

---- // END MESSAGE // ----

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Katriel lay on her stomach, sprawled on the floor, totally relaxed as she pondered her next move.

Brian sat more reservedly upright, his back against an armchair as he waited. The two Sedai siblings were gathered on the floor, their attention focused on a faux wood-grain board, where a multitude of photonic, circular chips of black and white were scattered in no discernible pattern. At least, not to the untrained eye.

The counselor extended her hand and pointed at an intersection on the lined grid of the board and a black chip materialized at the spot. Her brother sat forward at the play, making no indication of disappointment or glee or otherwise, and considered his options.

“You were pretty quiet at dinner,” he opined casually after a moment, still watching the board.

“Aren’t I always? You had all your colleagues there.” She didn’t sound offended by the observation, just matter-of-fact.

“Yeah, and they’re always curious about my sister that I talk about all the time, but they don’t ever get to meet her. Then they DO meet her and it’s like they didn’t actually, because she’s as quiet as a ghost the whole time.” Brian reached out and put a white token down.

“Sorry,” Katriel said, now her tone seemed a bit abashed. “I can’t help it.”

“I know,” Brian relented. “I’m not really upset. Anything you want to talk about though?”

“No, I’m okay,” was her slightly absent answer, as she studied the pieces on the board. And being in physically close proximity for the first time in a while, Brian could feel she wasn’t lying. This time.

“All right.” He let it go. He sure missed having this ability to check over comms.

Katriel’s unexpected jaunt to Sol System had put her in hailing range of the U.S.S. Sirocco where Brian was posted, so she had begged a few hours from Captain Perim to visit. Though surprised, the Betazoid botanist was pleased to see her and they spent a while catching up, before sitting through a pleasant dinner in the Sirocco’s main lounge.

Now, as they awaited for Katriel’s ride to return for her, they passed the time in Brian’s quarters playing abstract strategy games, something they used to do often as kids. When facing off in person, it made for an excellent exercise in selectively reading and bluffing for the other telepath. These things just weren’t the same over subspace.

“I’ve been playing more strategy games with officers on station,” she offered in the way of conversation.

“Oh?”

“Yes, but they’re those newer ones on PADDs, usually about building cities or collecting things.” Katriel lay another black chip on the board.

“Oh, pfft. I hate those. There’re too many pieces, too many rules. Takes like an hour just to learn how to play and longer to get any good.” Brian’s finger traced a random pattern in the air as he recalled the last several moves, attempting to divine how this last one fit in.

“I kind of like them,” Katriel temporized. “They’re systems.”

He grunted a bit as he reached forward to played a white token. “Systems with dozens upon dozens of variables and permutations. No two games are the same.”

“Like people,” was Katriel’s absent-minded response as she started to inspect the board. Brian watched her, a bit bemused.

“Like people,” he agreed quietly. “Do your patients know that you think of them as ‘systems’?” he wanted to know.

“Don’t know?” The counselor hummed a bit as she calculated possibly plays in her mind. “Even if they did, I hope they’d kind of agree. If they weren’t systems with predictable behavioral patterns and potential outcomes, then how could I ever hope to help anyone?”

“I’ll just stick to botany, thanks,” he said.

“You love it,” she answered, taking her turn. “That’s the reason to stay in it, not because you’d be terrible at something else.”

“Do you love counseling?” Brian promptly shot back, for a moment, more interested in her answer than the game.

Katriel hesitated for a long moment, before looking up to meet his gaze. “Most days.”

Another truthful answer. “You’re such an enigma sometimes.”

“I know,” she said, with self-deprecating humor. “I’m a huge hypocrite.”

Lieutenant Commander Sedai, please report to transporter room one.

The two Sedai siblings scrambled to their feet. “I was winning,” Brian stated, as Katriel collected her duffel.

“You were not,” she rejoined, slinging the pack over one shoulder and coming in to hug him gently. Brian returned the squeeze before letting her go. The two of them headed at a brisk pace to the transporter room in relative silence, the busy corridors of the vessel were not really a great venue for conversation.

But once they reached the transporter room, Brian couldn’t quite resist one last jibe as she boarded the pad. “When’m I going to get to meet Matt? Gonna bring him home this solstice, maybe?”

Katriel pursed her lips at the pointed reminder that she hadn’t saved enough vacation days last year to go home for the holidays. “Umm, maybe.”

Oh, finally, Brian felt it. A lie. Or at least, not a full truth.

The reassurance that he could still detect the difference with her overrode any disappointment in the answer she gave. He shook his head with mild exasperation and Katriel smiled a bit, knowingly. Her waving goodbye at him was the last exchange as she was transported out.

((Backdated by, like, a day.))

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In the darkness, she lay in wait.

It had been almost an entire half moon cycle since she was moved to this new jungle locale, smaller than the one she had staked out previously. It was territory that she was forced to share with the Little Sister who was occasionally fun to play with, but not much of a challenge. Little Sister preferred those strange false prey rags anyway, which seemed completely nonsensical to her. What point is there in the chase if the victim does not flee?

Fortunately, there was one other who stalked the same territory, a much worthier sort of prey, large and intimidating. A genuine challenge for her hunting skills. Thus far she had managed to score a pawful of victories against the Creature, but not yet had any of them been lethal blows.

Tonight, though, she was positive. This would be the night of her greatest victory.

So she waited and waited, patiently, silently, like the most masterful of hunters. Little Sister came by her hiding place at least twice, but she ignored the temptation to follow or chase. She had much larger fish to fry, after all.

Finally she could feel the vibrations of footsteps approaching in the corridor and when that strange snakelike noise sounded, the shadow of the Creature fell onto the gray-blue floor and she readied herself to strike.

There was a flash of white as something fell to the floor in front of her and she shot out from behind the cabinet to pounce on the hapless victim, her momentum carrying her into half a tumble as she sank her claws into the soft fabric and wrestled her foe into submission. Finally the adversary was defeated and she sat up, licking her paw in satisfaction for the flawless kill.

Katriel stood and stared down at the destroyed remains of a cat toy with bemusement, then at the grooming Lunarian Caracal a couple feet away.

“Neema is going to need to replicate a whole army of these to keep you happy.”

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“Ready?”

“Yes.”

“Okay. Three… two… one… go!”

There was a crackling of wrapping paper being ripped and undone, as the two Sedai siblings unwrapped their practically identical-looking gifts. The two of them had been unable to coordinate a meeting this year’s end, so tonight they had settled for a video comm call to catch up and chat and open their gifts from their parents.

These were unfortunately almost always fairly predictable. Katriel almost laughed as she uncovered a heavy textbook. “‘Oscillations in Neural Systems’,” she read aloud. “At least it’s not a medical text this time.”

“‘Statistical Methods in the Atmospheric Sciences, Volume Four’,” Brian recited the title of his, turning his voice sarcastic with false cheer on the followup. “Great. It’s just what I always wanted.”

“Are you sure you didn’t already read that in your third year at the Academy?” she queried.

“I’m sure I didn’t. Mostly because I don’t think I actually read any of my textbooks at the Academy,” was his steadfast rejoinder. Katriel scoffed a bit, but any response she might have had was forgotten as Fairy leapt out of nowhere to tackle the discarded wrapping paper bits with the ferocity of a jackal mastiff. The feline tumbled about before settling flat on the largest section of discarded paper and started nibbling on the corner.

“Fairy,” the counselor chided, reaching forward to pry the cat away from the makeshift paper meal. She bundled the discarded wrapping paper together and took it promptly to the replicator to recycle. May as well get a drink while I’m here, she thought, pulling a mostly white mug off the shelf and setting the replicator up to fill it with cider.

Brian was paging through his textbook when she came back and settled in her chair again. He glanced up as she sat again and clapped the textbook shut, shoving it offscreen carelessly. His gaze squinted as he stared at Katriel through the screen. “… What does your mug say?”

“Oh… heh.” She carefully moved her fingers out of the way of the printed text, leaning forward so the mug would appear larger on screen for him. Brian’s expression cleared and turned a bit more delighted.

“‘My therapist has whiskers.’ Hah! Where’d you get that?”

“It was a gift,” Katriel answered, sheepishly, leaning back in her armchair as she watched her black-furred feline friend circle around on the floor below.

“That’s wild. From a patient?”

She shook her head, but she was smiling vaguely as she brought the mug up for a sip. “Not really, just a friend.”

“Yeah?” Brian stretched out on his couch, leaning back with his arms behind his head. “What else have you gotten this year?”

Katriel hummed as she tried to recall. In the meantime, Fairy decided to interpret her owner’s lean back as an invitation, leaping up with that effortless feline grace and sitting promptly in the Betazoid’s crosslegged lap. “I received a… year’s subscription to the Federation Choice Holonovels Library, through the gift exchange. This mug. A very large Andorian tapestry–”

“Another one?” Her brother looked miffed. He’d still never found another copy of the original Andorian tapestry that he’d gifted to his sister, that had been destroyed. Perhaps it was no longer in print. “Was it the old parable?”

“No, a new one, short but sweet,” she clarified. She allowed the curious cat to sniff at the contents of her mug for a few seconds, but the creature wasn’t interested enough to actually try a sip (not that Katriel would permit it) and eventually turned her focus into preparing for a nap. “Umm. Coby gave me this wooden box with a really ornately carved lid. I might use it for a candy tray, I suppose.”

Brian sounded skeptical. “Since when do you eat candy? Besides chocolate?”

“I also received a very elegant Vulcan tea set,” Katriel just barreled on heedlessly. “For brewing and two matching glasses. Looks like it was made of some pearlesque material. Along with a large supply of tea from all over the galaxy.”

“Vulcan? Are they trying to tell you something?” He couldn’t resist the tease. “Who was that from?”

“… actually, I’m really not sure,” she answered slowly, casting a brief glance over towards the door of her quarters. “You remember last year how I received that neural spectral device, delivered anonymously to my door? In a blue-wrapped box.”

“Um. Kinda, yeah?”

“So the tea set came the same way. Not through the exchange, just delivered through a paid mail service, no sender or tracking info. Also in a blue-wrapped box. I feel like I should be a bit more disturbed, but both gifts have just been really nice,” she admitted.

“I wouldn’t turn down a free tea set and I don’t even like tea that much,” Brian noted.

Katriel’s lips quirked to one side. “And let’s see… some glass figurines. One of the station, a couple others of various animals. And…” she paused for a moment. “This … I left it in my office, because it looked kind of breakable and you know how Fairy can be, but it’s an art piece. Like a little Milky Way in a bottle? Really pretty. Very startling gift.”

“Why’s that?”

The counselor shifted in her seat. “Just really wasn’t expecting a gift from the person it was from. I was a bit… well, myself… with her. Once.” She shrugged a little, expression marginally rueful but unapologetic.

Brian had to consider for a moment. “Guessing you mean you couldn’t quite stop yourself from lecturing her on something stupid you think she did.”

The younger Sedai pursed her lips. “I couldn’t help it. I was disappointed. She seemed really promising when she first transferred here and we were getting along all right prior to that. Then…” her shoulders lifted in a shrug. “I don’t know.” Katriel used the excuse of drinking from her mug to avoid further explanation.

The other hummed in thought. “Well, okay. So what did Matt get you, then?”

Katriel made sure to swallow her drink of cider first. “How do you know he didn’t get me the tapestry?”

“Because he got you the other one and I’D be disappointed in him if he was as predictable as that,” Brian pointed out with some mild exasperation. “What was it?”

“… An atom,” she responded after a prolonged moment.

“An atom,” Brian repeated with no minor amount of confusion. “That must have been a pain to wrap.”

“From a nebula,” she added.

“From a… oh. Pfeh,” He made a rude noise as he rolled his eyes. “Stars on toast, do NOT start going on about Barthalla again, I swear. You two are really – be-boop – gah!”

He had been shaking his head in disgust when Katriel heard his comm badge’s alert sound and she smirked into her mug as she watched him haul himself off the couch and move off screen. He paced back into view a moment or two later, an apologetic expression painted on his face. “They need me in lab three. We can pick up again later, yeah?”

“Yeah, of course,” she responded comfortably. “Happy Solstice, Brian.”

“Happy Solstice, Owl.”

((Textbook titles shamelessly stolen from examples on Amazon. Never read them. They might be good!))

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Grief unfolds like a flower
and will not be rushed.
- unknown author

The rain came down in torrents. Soaked to the bone and freezing, he trudged through the cold and the wet, feeling the frost crystallizing on his bare feet, turning his toes numb. Unable to see more than a meter in any direction, every whispering noise was unfamiliar and made his spine prickle. He’d turn to vocalize his upset, only to see nothing as the source, just the vapor of fog that vanished in the black.

What am I looking for?

His gaze dropped downward and studied the landscape of a myriad puddles, stretching out like dark mirrors, their reflections chaotic as the surfaces rippled from the sky’s deluge. He stared into the one closest as a shock of white streaked across like a soundless bolt of lightning. The vision galvanized him into motion and he fell on all fours at the edge of the errant puddle, breath hitching in hope of stealing another glimpse of whatever it had been.

Anything but this endless dark.

In his misery, he had not really expected to succeed, but suddenly it was in his view. Wide-eyed he stared at a quivering image of what he wanted most, every nerve in his taxed body on fire from the realized epiphany. The desire to reach was voracious, yet he could not make himself eat.

This is as close as I will ever be again.

She came awake.

The insistent pounding of the downpour gave way to the subdued humming of a station deck. Katriel’s eyes blinked open to the sight of her bed mate’s still closed, his breathing easy and untroubled. For a brief eternity, she simply watched him, feeling her own vitals gradually relaxing with each tick of time that distanced her from the emotional snare of another person’s nightmare. But whose?

She studied Matt’s sleeping countenance with as much impersonal awareness as she could muster in her still sleep-fogged state. He certainly didn’t seem like he was confronting any dark dreams, but her apprehension was already piqued. After a moment’s hesitation, she reached her hand out from under the covers and gingerly set it on his open palm. Touch wasn’t necessary for a Betazoid to make use of her abilities, but she couldn’t quite resist the gesture as she sought out his unconscious state of mind.

He bobbed a little, up and down, floating serenely on his back in the warm waters of a tropical lagoon. Spanned above him was a dark blue sky dotted with thousands of stars and permeated by gas nebulas that stretched from one horizon to the other. The bright yellow sun, center in the sky, did not dampen his view of the universe behind it. From a short distance away, he could make out the sound of the mellow lapping of waves on a sandy beach. Farther off, the crashes of the ocean surf on the rocky shoals of the atoll surrounding him.

The waters here were calm and warm and oh so clear. He turned his head to the side, submerging his face in liquid. For hundreds of meters in every direction he could see fish swimming across brilliantly colored coral. A turtle rose slowly from the bottom, gently breaching the lagoon’s surface and continued to glide away into the sky above as casually as it had swam in the water below.

He turned his head back and a deep breath through his nose filled his senses with that of the salty sea, with fringes of vanilla, evergreen and freshly-washed linen. The slightest of waves sent a dash of water across his face and he shut his eyes in reaction. When they opened again, he was staring up at the same dark blue sky as several white clouds floated into view. He raised a hand and, index finger outstretched, traced out the shape of a parrot fish in the cloud. It held still a moment before taking life and swimming away. Next he outlined a simple sailboat, which he nudged gently into drifting off towards the horizon of his vision.

More cloud shapes followed. A pumpkin, with a cheerful smiling face. Another fish, larger this time, a muskie from back home. A bear that seemed to stare at him first, then the sky, before it got to its cloudy white feet and plodded off.

She pulled back her mental presence, relief skittering through her veins, tempered by a vague amusement at the scene she had left. But there was a lingering regret as she shifted slightly so that she could raise her eyes to the ceiling, wondering silently at whose suffering she had unintentionally witnessed.

Despair seeped into her, for the grieving soul locked away in his own sort of prison. Guilt followed soon after, for the uncomfortable decision she had already chosen to make in not seeking the individual out. She had learned long ago that her ability to help others was limited, so she had to choose her battles wisely and wandering the corridors of Magellan station to look for a stranger in the middle of the night did not qualify. She tried to clear her mind for sleep again.

They were all prisoners in the same way, she supposed resignedly. Every individual possessed of an all-encompassing consciousness rivaling and equaling that of any other, all still unable to comprehend the full nuance of a life as experienced by someone else. But sometimes it was possible to synchronize with one another, to break through the thin film of cognitive isolation with flashes of shared experience and feeling. Sometimes her extraordinary empathy was even enough by itself to create a connection and the craved relief that accompanied it. Many other times, though, it wasn’t. Whoever it was, wherever they were, she hoped that –

Her mind quieted suddenly as Matt’s unconscious fingers insistently threaded through hers, leaving their hands gently clasped. Her breathing slowed as she forgot the feeling of the cold.

Grounded in the moment, she slept.

((Backdated by one … and a half days.))

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The sea is everything … It is an immense desert, where man is never lonely,
for he feels life stirring on all sides … It is the Living Infinite.
- Jules Verne, Twenty Thousand Leagues Under The Sea

“Hey, uh… Lieutenant Commander? Sedai, right?”

Katriel glanced over from her perch at the window seat. She held a PADD absently in her hand, but had long stopped reading its contents, finding the underwater view outside to be far more compelling. Even if it was also… the only view.

“Yes?” She asked in reply, looking at the speaker, the human male scientist from the survey team. Pecher was his name, she thought she remembered.

“You want to join us?” His smile was one part uncertain, one part hopeful, and one part encouraging.

“… for… cards?” Katriel blinked at the unexpected invitation.

“You may as well say yes,” rumbled the Bolian at the table. Hig Umvor, chief scientist on the survey team and significantly recovered from his skirmish with the mercenaries, was shuffling the deck as he looked in her direction. “He’s not going to stop nagging you until you do.”

Pecher grinned abruptly in tacit agreement, while Katriel looked skeptical. “I’m Betazoid, I’ll be able to tell what all your cards are.”

The human was completely undeterred. In fact, he seemed even more excited somehow. “Even better! I’ve always wanted to play against a Betazoid. Really test my poker face, you know?”

Reluctantly, Katriel set her PADD down and climbed to her feet, crossing the small space to take the fourth seat at the table. Her eyes caught on the pile of glinting circular tokens that Tuziar, the engineering Benzite, passed to her. “What are these?”

“Your chips!” he responded.

“Did you replicate these?” Katriel picked up one of the ‘chips’ in curiosity. Roughly circular and slightly concaved, the item was no bigger than a few centimeters in diameter and fit easily in the center of her palm. Likely a shell of some sort, she guessed, with the rough external side while the curved internal surface was polished smooth and vividly multihued. On top of that, Katriel could make out the skeletal imprint of a six-limbed star shape.

“Nah. That’s Kelterre specimen number eight. Or, at least, the remains of it,” Pecher noted aloud when he saw Katriel tracing out the star shape in the shell. He snickered as Katriel fumbled the shell in surprise. “Well, they all are.” He gestured to all their little piles of shells. “Not sure how familiar you are with Earth animalia, but they’re kind of like a cross between sand dollars and starfish. Though with way shorter lifespans.”

“You should have seen us,” Tuziar chimed in, as he obligingly cut the deck when Umvor offered it to him. “Collecting them one by one, methodically organizing and categorizing them, thought they were special and unique. Then we come in one morning after the tide goes out and they are literally everywhere. Couldn’t take a step in any direction without crunching down on the lot of them.” His tone was self-deprecating. “Stopped treating them like glass after that. Always more where that came from.”

Katriel shook her head, bemused. She picked up the pair of cards that were dealt to her, taking a brief look at the numbers and suits, before laying them flat again. She kept a straight face as a ripple of nervousness passed through her. Naturally she was familiar with the rules and how to play, but admittedly it wasn’t a pastime she indulged in often. Who wants to play poker with a Betazoid, after all?

“So Sedai,” Tuziar started speaking again as the rest of them checked their cards. “Did I hear the ah… Captain Perim, was it? She was calling you counselor over the comm, is that right?”

“Yes, you heard right,” Katriel confirmed, watching as Umvor laid down the first three community cards.

“Is that the legislative kind of councilor or the psychology kind?” Umvor inquired.

The question made Katriel smile for some reason. “The psychology kind. I’m a counselor on Deep Space 13, as part of the station staff.”

“Tough gig,” Pecher commented. “I’d never want that job.”

“Yes, people keep telling me that,” was Katriel’s slightly dry and amused rejoinder. “And yet the apparent unpopularity of my work has not convinced Captain Perim to give me a raise.”

“If you’re starbase staff, how did you end up on the Asimov with the investigation team?” Tuziar wanted to know after they placed their initial bets.

“We’re encouraged to occasionally volunteer for available away missions,” the Betazoid responded, eyeing the new community card as it came down and trying her best to ignore the inevitable emotional tells she could feel from the others in reaction. “It’s a good way to get out of our usual environment and pick up some new experience, without transferring out of our positions. I have a medical degree in internal medicine, so I can fill that role when necessary, since emergency field therapy is not really a thing.”

Pecher made a rude noise. “Bet you’re sorry you volunteered for this particular mission now, though, yeah? Almost drowned and then got stuck down here with us.”

“I admit it wasn’t what I expected,” Katriel temporized, before smiling faintly. “But I’m mostly relieved that we’re safe and currently in no danger. When the tide recedes, the Asimov team will be back to get us free, I’m sure. I’ve been through worse situations.”

“Hope so,” Pecher grumped.

Umvor placed the last community card face up and Katriel schooled her expression as best she could. Her best was a two pair with three of the community cards and an eight of hearts in hand. Not exceptionally strong, but better than Pecher who she was (literally) willing to bet had nothing and Tuziar had folded in the previous round. That left Umvor, who was a great deal harder to read than his younger teammates. The three of them placed their final bets as Tuziar watched on with interest.

“All right, show hands,” Umvor directed.

Pecher turned his hand up first, already looking abashed as he did so. “I missed the flush by one card!”

That set Tuziar cackling with glee. “Really testing out that poker face, huh?”

Katriel turned her hand over. “Queens and eights.”

“I also have queens and eights,” Umvor noted, turning his own pair of cards over. Katriel started at the unlikely reveal. “But I also have the higher kicker, ten to your four.” Pecher sat back in his seat, sighing explosively, as Umvor pulled the pot of chips into his own pile.

“Umvor won again?” asked a voice from the doorway of the main compartment. Jacaalo Shyrid stepped in, an older Bajoran woman and research scientist. “Even against the Betazoid?”

“Apparently empathy isn’t everything,” Katriel noted, her tone bemused. “Is it my shift now?”

“Yes, I’m sorry,” Jacaalo smiled in response as she came over to the table, to inspect the recent card game.

“Not at all, you can take my place in cards. Hopefully I’m a better comms operator than I am card player,” Katriel deadpanned as she vacated the seat. “Thank you for the game, gentlemen. It was educational.”

The others replied with polite ‘welcomes’ as she headed out to the main compartment for her watch.

((After Action Report: Kelterre II and Event Transcript))

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“So what’s new in your stretch of the stars?”

Katriel sat back against the chair, her head tilted flush with the headrest, which left her naturally staring at the ceiling.

“Not a… whole lot,” she replied, thinking over recent events. “Business as usual mostly, almost quiet even. Few new assistant department heads were selected, for ops, security, and medical.”

Her brother sat on a footstool on the vidscreen, a guitar settled in his lap that he plucked at quietly. “Anyone I know?”

“Don’t think so. There was also …” she paused, then changed her mind about what she was going to say. “Probably the most interesting thing has been these psych and neuroscience teams from Sol that’ve come looking for assistance in scoping out some research projects. Have been helping them a bit… or a lot, I suppose.”

“Yeah? Sounds just up your alley.”

“Maybe.” They sat in companionable silence for a few moments while he strummed a couple idle chords. Katriel sat up after a while and reached over to a decorative tray sitting on the table, picking out one of the foil-wrapped items collected within. He watched her unwrap the morsel of dark chocolate and pop it into her mouth.

Then she smoothed out the creases in the foil wrapper to read the text that was printed on its interior. A sort of fortune-cookie-chocolate. “Laughter is the shortest distance between two people,” she read aloud.

“Oh, that’s a good one,” Brian remarked.

Katriel swallowed the chocolate bit before responding. “Surprisingly so.”

Another beat of silence passed before Brian frowned abruptly and halted his playing, his palm coming flat against the strings to cease any remaining vibration. “Are you all right? You’ve been really terse all night.”

The counselor sat paused, her expression unchanging, neither guilty nor surprised. After a few moments, she responded, “I honestly don’t know.”

“Nothing’s happened? Getting along with everyone?” her brother pressed.

“Yes, I… everything seems fine. I had a good evening, been passing time with Coby and Neema and work is normal, no disasters. I just…” her tone was edged with some frustration.

“What?”

“I just… feel a bit… disconnected, I guess. Detached. I don’t know why.” She shook her head, refusing to look at the vidscreen, where Brian’s brow was furrowed with concern. He expelled a noisy breath after a while.

“Could it be someone around you?” he asked.

“… Oh.” Katriel visibly digested the suggestion. “I … don’t know? I suppose it’s possible.” She sounded unsure and met her sibling’s gaze.

He watched her for a few moments more. “Just as long as it passes.”

“I know.”

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The only rules that matter are these.

---- // MESSAGE ORIGIN: Deep Space 13.
AUDIO ONLY. SIGNED: Sedai, Katriel // ----

Hey, it’s me. I’m… sorry I missed your call earlier, the meeting with the neuroscience team went a bit long, unfortunately.

::her voice seems to get a shade quieter and then louder again at random intervals. She might be moving from room to room in her quarters, causing the computer to seamlessly switch audio input sources periodically to compensate::

First things first. Yes, Neema returned to station earlier this afternoon, safe and sound. We spoke briefly in the evening and she seemed mostly unhurt and largely unchanged by her experience, so that is a relief at least.

::there’s the sound of drawers rolling open, as well as rustling fabric. The same drawers rolling shut not long after::

Terix has been the dominant topic of conversation for the past several days. I’m not very… good? … at interstellar politics, so while I have paid some attention to the broader strokes of development, I find myself to be frustratingly ambivalent about what should be done about it all. ::her tone turns rueful:: Command really just isn’t for me.

Neema privately admitted a likewise uncertainty, but at least she seems prepared to commit to particular courses of action. She’s been trying very hard to balance the order of the Prime Directive against the chaos of those who would provoke us to bypassing it. Just like a leader should.

::there’s a very long pause. When she starts again, her voice is slow and ponderous at first, like she’s still formulating her upcoming thoughts::

The other day. There was this … unrelated incident on the promenade level. I was climbing the ramp to the Cantina and noticed that there were several officers standing around, verbally taking this cadet to task for sitting on the bridge on the promenade.

You know the one I’m talking about, of course… the aesthetically pleasing but moderately perilous walkway to the promenade conference room? Yes, that one. Not really certain who designed it, but it wouldn’t be the first time basic safety principles have been ignored in favor of architectural elegance and I’m sure it won’t be the last.

::there are some muted beeping noises. The sound of a replicator humming to life to complete an order::

In any case, one of the DS13 cadets loves to perch on the edge of it, legs hanging, like off a fishing dock. Though there is no written regulation against it, I have observed countless officers stop to verbally reprimand him for it. Even I admit that I paused next to him, the first time I noticed, to question him on whether or not it was really a good idea to be sitting that way.

Most of the officer concerns hinge on whether or not it’s safe for him to be sitting like that and, failing that, how preventable the potential inconvenience would be to the other officers who would be saddled with the obligation of assisting him in case he should fall. They’re not wrong, of course. The cadet is playing with risk; that is an undisputed fact.

But… how much risk, exactly?

::a short pause, filled with additional beeping noises of another replicator order going through::

Cadet Stern is easily one of the most, if not the most, responsible cadet in our current cadre, with a work ethic that rivals officers many years older. He’s been engaging in this seating habit ever since he arrived and I have never so much as seen him teeter off balance in the entire time. In my view, given the evidence, I feel that the risk is minimal at best.

Of course no amount of caution will completely eliminate the possibility of an accident, but if zero chance of failure was the only acceptable outcome when deciding on a course of action, we’d never accomplish anything. And really, no one should live their life restricted by just the possibility of failure, especially if said possibility is objectively determined to be small or nearly negligent.

::another short pause in which there is a faintly audible felinoid purring, followed by the muted thud of a small metallic plate being set on the windowsill::

If the cadet has assessed the chances of a negative outcome to be small enough that the activity is worth engaging in, then the truth is that none of us have much grounds to argue with him otherwise. At least, not as long as he’s accurately assessed that risk. He might be pushing at the boundary of this unwritten rule that the rest of us seem to hold in high esteem, but until the day he actually falls, he is not harming anyone else through his choice and may never actually do so.

::she sighs and there’s the sound of her settling heavily into the cushions of an armchair::

As it turns out, though… the real risk entailed in the cadet’s actions is not in the possibility that he’ll fall and hurt himself, or that he chances inconveniencing others in the aftermath. No, the real risk… is when another less responsible cadet sees Cadet Stern’s example and decides to follow it, without properly assessing whether or not they are capable of shouldering the same risk.

That is where things fall apart. The hypothetical imitating cadet fails, for whatever reason, to accomplish the same task safely, resulting in a number of officers who shake their heads and say ‘I told you so’, while Cadet Stern might retort stubbornly that he was not the one who fell in the end.

And so it is with all rules, I suppose. Even the ones as strongly worded as the Prime Directive. Should we… should Neema… choose to push at the boundaries and restrictions of the rules to effect a certain goal, there’s a possibility, maybe even a probability, that it might be the ‘right’ thing to do. This time.

But… it won’t always be. And somewhere down the line, there’ll be a Captain who looks back at what we’ve done and they’ll think… they chose to bend the rules, so why can’t I? Will that hypothetical future Captain remember to assess their circumstances accurately for their decision, all the variables, all the risks, all the possible consequences? Or will they blindly cite precedent and potentially hurt themself and everyone around them?

::another pause and there’s the slightly rhythmic and tinny sound of her fingernails against the ceramic of her mug::

Well, anyway. Enough rambling from me. I abhor your current training schedule, by the way, it quite plainly … sucks. And yes, you may tell Commander Donavah that I feel so.

Miss you tons. Stay safe out there.

---- // END MESSAGE // ----

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When it rains, it pours.

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Deliver last week’s case studies analysis to lab 2a.

Counseling department meeting.

Lunch with Ensign Caissa.

Meeting with Recreational department to finalize Risa shore leave arrangements.

Sit in on clinical trials for new anxiolytic.

Review and write up feedback notes for selected at random junior counselor reports.

Comm conference with –

The counselor’s train of thought broke off as the caracal she was jogging with halted abruptly, ears perked at apparently nothing. Katriel jerked to a stop as the pitch-black feline darted suddenly into the underbrush.

Uh-oh. Maybe it hadn’t been such a good idea to exercise the feline in the arboretum?

Katriel flinched as she heard a startled squawk, the rapid flapping noise of wingbeats, and a flurry of rustling leaves and branches. A scant breath later, an avian of some species she didn’t recognize jetted out of the topiary in a terrified retreat. It disappeared quickly out of sight into the upper branches of the surrounding trees.

Razor crept back out of the bushes with a self-satisfied saunter. The Betazoid twitched as she noticed exactly three colorful feathers poking out of the feline’s mouth. The smug feline sat on her haunches at Katriel’s feet, lowered her head and dropped the slightly bent and crooked trophies on the pavement.

“… okay, you know what? We’ll just stick to the habitat ring corridors from now on.”

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I write this from a sandy shore
to be washed out like times before.
Where will it drift, where will it go?
Its destination I do not know.
But with it now goes my love
and her lost gaze from high above.

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There’s beauty in the breakdown, so let go.
- Frou Frou

There’s a new scar on my heart today, left there by a stranger.
Though I can’t help but wonder: are they really so strange to me,
when I can be stirred by their pain so fluently?

Nothing I can say seems like enough. I can’t even promise
that it will get better, because I know myself that it never does.
This new hurt is yours forever.

But eventually one day, you forget that it does, just for a minute.
Then the next day, you forget for two. And so on and so on,
until the day when you forget for longer than you remember.

For now, take one day at a time,
like stepping stones across a raging river.

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Fairy tales are more than true:
not because they tell us that dragons exist,
but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten.
- Neil Gaiman

Clad in her fencing whites, Katriel strode briskly down the corridor to the holodeck block. She held her helmet under her left arm as she walked, her forearms extended just enough to maneuver one synthetic glove onto her right hand. She pressed the weave in between her fingers before tugging on the glove’s wrist, cinching the material more snugly.

Periodically she would nod to a familiar looking passerby, though she didn’t exchange words with anyone. It was a bit unusual for her to be making her way towards the regular holodecks in this particular getup. But with so many engineering teams refocused on the new construction upgrades, maintenance and repair in the main starbase facilities had fallen behind. So with several gym minidecks out of order, a few others in maintenance cycles, and the rest reserved, Katriel had no choice but to book one of the main holodecks for her workout, even though they were quite a bit larger than she strictly needed.

She was in the middle of pulling on her left glove when she arrived at her reserved deck and, absently heedless of its status, she walked right in when the doors obligingly swished open…

… and she stepped straight into a sea of green. She paused with one white shoe on the carpet of vividly healthy grass and puzzled over the implications for a nanosecond before she raised her head and looked around. The holodeck is apparently already active? The air was crisp and chill and there was flora and foliage as far as she could see. A large, forboding silhouette loomed far in the distance. Some sort of castle or fortress.

Before Katriel could call up a console to check the reservation schedule, a squealed shriek sounded from around the other side of a tree, before a blazing ball of flame swooshed out of the trees and roared straight for her. The counselor reflexively lifted her arm in reaction, more to shield from the sudden blinding light than anything else, and the fireball hit the guard on her forearm. There was a brief heat and then nothing, as the fantastical spell fizzled out.

Thank you, holodeck safeties.

“OH GOODNESS, THIS ONE IS SO … SORRY …”

Katriel had to blink once, twice, three times to get her vision to clear. And yet in the end, she was still looking at the child-sized figure of a felinoid as he scrambled over a log and ran towards her.

“…sorrysorrysorry…”

He was wearing a burgundy robe and a large, elaborate witch’s hat in the same color. In his right paw-hand, he carried a wooden staff with a golden globe topping it off.

“…sorrysorrysorrysorry is lady okay this one did not mean to --”

“It’s okay, it’s okay! I’m fine,” Katriel forestalled the extraordinarily apologetic little caitian wizard. Her eyes caught on the fallen log where two other caitian cubs were climbing over, both likewise dressed in fantastic costumes. One, an archer dressed in a forest green tunic; she’d have blended right in with the forest if it wasn’t for the bright orange hood-and-cloak on her head. The other was a knight, his shining silver plate armor gleaming as he shuffled forward with an appropriately-sized toy sword and shield.

Katriel’s lips twitched at the sight. Clearly she had interrupted some sort of elaborate, medieval playdate.

“I’m not hurt,” Katriel reassured. “But I seem to have … lost my way. Who are you three?”

The archer-caitian leapt down from the log and pretended to aim her crossbow at some far away target. “This one is Katniss Everpaw, most famous archer in seven kingdoms!”

The knight-caitian raised his shield shyly, from a slight distance. “This one is Sir Clawsalot, of the Round Fishbowl.”

The wizard-caitian had overcome his anxiety about harming Katriel with his fire spell and proudly struck a pose. “And this one is all-powerful wizard, Whisker the White!”

Archer-Caitian sniffed once, looking a bit dismissive. “Not so powerful, really. Whisker not able to make staff work at start.”

‘Whisker’ rounded on ‘Everpaw’, all righteous childlike indignity. “But this one got it at the end!”

“Yeah, and almost killed someone at same time!” ‘Everpaw’ retorted.

“DID NOT!”

“DID SO!”

“DID NOT!”

“DID SO!”

Katriel was rubbing at a temple when another figure stepped in behind her. “Be quiet, noisy cubs! Who are you disturbing now?”

The betazoid turned to see a full-sized, adult caitian standing in the archway. She was, Katriel observed, not costumed, but wore a Starfleet uniform with an operations-gold stripe.

“I’m sorry,” Katriel apologized. “I thought I had booked this holodeck for my workout, but it seems I might be mistaken.”

The caitian smiled toothily in return. “Is no bother. Children, did you say hello?”

“Hellllooooo,” the cubs chorused obediently.

“Good,” was the caitian’s approving response. “Now go find dragon or there will not be enough time to slay before lunchtime.”

“Dragon!” “Yeah, must go!” “SLAAAAaaaaayyyyyy!”

Katriel watched, half astonished and half amused, as the cub trio ran off through the trees. She looked back at the other woman, whom she could only presume was the errant cubs’ guardian. The two of them consulted the holodeck’s reservation schedule which, in the end, appeared to show that the holodeck was double-booked. A display error had likely caused one of them not to see the reserved state when the other had attempted to make their own reservation.

Katriel immediately elected to bow out, however, feeling as though her need was certainly lesser in this particular situation. As she headed out of the holodeck, she paused briefly.

“Is there … really a dragon?”

The caitian’s tail twitched in amusement, gesturing with a paw to her own chest. “Is this one. Will be using holographic projection when is time.”

“Ah,” was Katriel’s richly amused response as she continued on her way. “Then I wish you a gloriously valiant death.”

“This one is very good actress, so promise it will be!”


Thanks, Skyler!

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